New Friends & New Medications

After the three days of testing Dr. Roberts came & talked to me & said he was going to put me on new medications that just came out on the market, a yeah a Guinea Pig. It is called yes, Prozac for the depression & Klonopin for my anxiety. So I started the meds. The Klonopin was great. I slept wonderfully. I remember at one time I had to fill out a 500 questioner thing & one of the questions was do you believe in UFO’s & I do believe in them, but I said no on the paper, because I thought they’d think I was really nutso.



I met a guy named Mark & we became really close in the hospital. I met a girl in the locked unit named Diane she was an alcoholic, her head shook a lot, it was a nervous habit. I met another girl named Tina who wanted to kill herself in an unusual way. She went to a hotel room & laid on the bed & asked God to kill her. She stayed there for 4 days until she ran out of money, just laid on the bed waiting for God to kill her. We just laid on the floor with our legs on the couch & laughed about it. I was glad she could laugh about it. So it was Betty, David, Mark, Tina, Diana & I we were all buddies. We all held hands all the time, prayed together, laughed together & cried together.


Once they took us bowling & on the way there, Diana saw these girls on the street ready to cross the road. Diana is a Lesbian & she goes oh baby & I went where, forgetting she was a lesbian. I go what? She goes those two women & I go, oh gees. But I actually looked at the two women not wanting anyone to know that I WAS A LESBIAN!!!! Not really even admitting it to myself yet not until I was in my 30’s, which led to a long miserable life for me until I admitted it. Being with men, so people wouldn’t know what I really was & hating every minute of it.