Sexual Abuse

Yes, my father had sexual abused me at age 11. He raped me, he made me perform oral sex on him, & he fondled me. I was living with my grandma at the time & he came to get me two weekends after the abuse & I hide behind my gram & said that I did NOT want to go. He gave me a strange look & left. My gram wondered why I didn't want to go. I just said because I didn't feel like it. Then the next night gram & her boyfriend & I went out to eat & I said something about dad doing something to me. They would ask me what, but I wouldn't say. We got home & I finally told gram, but I was laughing when I told her. I didn't understand that. My therapist said it could of been a way to cope or a nervous thing. Gram called my mom who was living in Florida at the time & she cried & said she actually believed he'd do something like that. I never actually told them what he did to me, just said he sexual abused me. My gram called my dad & he never denied it at all. And gram told him you're never going to see her again, but don't forget about her birthday & Christmas & he said he wouldn't. Well that lasted about four years. I did talk to him once when I was 16, because I had a half brother & wanted to talk to him, but dad did call me & I ended up talking to him too. Dad made me feel so guilty & he begged me for his forgiveness. And I did, STUPID!!!! My mom was on the couch crying & saying how could you forgive him. And in time I realized the crap he pulled on me & I really couldn't forgive him. Many years later I wrote him & he wrote me back to tell me he had moved to Florida, only about 2 to 3 hours away, & he wanted to see me. But no way in hell was I going to see him. I still have not forgiven him, but for my own sake I need to because it's only hurting me, not him. And I need to find out how I can forgive!!

Monday, Monday


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Saturday 9: Monday, Monday



1. How does your day usually go on Monday? It all depends, it's never the same.



2. Who was the last band you saw live? Whitesnake with Skid Row & Kip Winger, excellent show by the way.



3. When was the last time you purchased something over $50? Four days ago, on craft paints I bought 100 2oz bottles for a GREAT price.



4. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Depends who I'm talking about it with.



5. Do you wish you were someplace else right now? With my gramma



6. Tell us about the last wedding that you attended. It was a Jewish wedding, very different, exciting.



7. What's annoying you right now? All the fighting going on in this world.

8. What is your best skill/ability? Why? Scroll Sawing, I love cutting wood on the scroll saw & making different things for people. Don't know why I'm good at it, just am.



9. If someone asked a friend of yours, "Hey, what is one thing your friend is exceptional at?", what would they say about you? Why? Making people laugh, because I know it makes people happy & that's what I like to do.